So, I'm down to the second to last week of camp. So, this week then and then one more, and then I'm done. Then my brothers will be in town, and then I am moving back to college. And that's where I don't know what will happen any more. Yeah, life is confusing that way.
So, this week at camp I am working with one of the horse camps. I will be around horses for most of the week with 13 girls between the ages of 9 and 11. Camp is still under a fire ban, gosh darn heat. We've had so much thunder storms, but no rain. It is awful. Ah, one of the joys of working at camp. Last week was somewhat stressful, but still enjoyable. I think the most memorable of this is visiting the pond. We took the girls to the pond to canoe. I didn't want to go into the water, so I just was in the canoe with my fellow counselor Trek. Of course, the first thing that happens.... she tips the canoe. I land in the water in full clothing, shirt, jeans, shoes, socks. Everything. Thanks, Trek. Thanks.
Coffee cake is still delicious. Yummmy
This weekend was also so much fun. I had a movie night with Scott and Hotty, which was great, though I think I fell asleep through part of it. We were trying to accomplish our goal of having an XMen movie marathon. Alas, that did not happen. We only got through watching the first one. I also had a wonderful time visiting the temple. (For those of you reading this who are not Mormon, I am sorry if you do not fully understand this.) I asked Scott if he would join me to do baptisms. It was an awesome experience and I'm glad we got to do it. Especially since Scott is going to the MTC for an LDS mission to Australia next week. After that, we had an adventure going to Taco Bell, enjoying the air conditioning, playing cards, and watching a movie. Surprisingly, I made it home before 11pm. :) I am just that cool.
I wanted to say that I am doing better. Things are still hard. I don't like to show my sadness, but it's always there. It's odd to think that I won't see Adam this September. That I won't text him. There are no more funny texts and jokes between us. I see things from the Army, or men from the base and my heart aches. I wish I had my soldier back. But, I'm still going. I am pushing forward and having fun. I'm smiling and despite all of this, I am happy. Just because there's something hard and sad going on in life, doesn't mean you can't be happy despite it all. This is probably the hardest thing I've had to go through, and I'm not grateful it happened. But I am grateful for the experience I've gotten, for the growing I've done, for the friends and wonderful support that people give me. I have gotten closer to Heavenly Father, I've had to. And I'm grateful for that. It will take a long time before I'm completely back to normal, but it will happen. Hopefully.
Again, I would like to thank all of those people who have been there for me. Who are still there for me. Who let me talk to them, who help me smile, who love and care for me. I don't think that they all know how much they have done. A small smile can go a long way. A friendly "Hello," or "Are you doing better," can make the difference between a good day and a bad day. So Thank you. To all of those people.
That's pretty much all that has been going on in my life right now. Camp, weekends, hang out with friends, then back to camp. Repeat. Insert a bit of crying for emotional release, and that's my summer. I feel like I am being repetitive in my blogging. So I will end it there, and post next week, or sometime close to that. :)
Oh.... ps.... I'm starting to feel sick from the mass of coffee cake I just had :P Yeah.... thanks karma.
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